i called it sadly enough i really did... though it did last much longer than i had anticipated and even had me thinking maybe what if... but too bad this isn't a rom-com and too bad "the guy" isn't going to make a big giant touching extremely thoughtful gesture and everything will be okay.. it's just too bad
i just really wish i could've done more... i'm so sorry for the pain i did to you (un)intentionally.... i knew i shouldn't have done some of those things though i never was "wrong" it still wasn't great... i'm weak like that and i hate it...
also i have no idea why i like cimorelli <http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTMOsJTJ8OQ> covering best thing i never had... they really aren't even that good...
its just a bad week for mee... i've always been the help... i've always been so very blessed; to be able to give, to be able to extend a hand, to be able to support.... instead of need...but like i just can't do it... work/anxiety/awkwardness/tension/sadness/a bit of family crazy even... i don't even have time to play HoN for crying out loud no destressor... its just too stressful.... so i'm sorry i lash out at my friends... though i wouldn't even call it lashing.. i just make you feel bad or i neglect you guys thuogh i don't mean to so i hope you can forgive...
and holy crap why did i get rejected for a scene visa card fml... i really wanted those free four movies...
and its so awkward... and nothing is the same... and i hate change... so i sit here like dead... so very tired having to wake up and by being sleep depriving myself and not really being there... i can make it through the day... i can do my work and hope that everyone will get better, like they don't even have to be good just maybe okay? it is really so much to ask?
my abstract painting is now just a bunch of separate shapes... and i still love all my shapes but sometimes a complex beautiful object is more than just a sum of its parts....
my prayers go out to everyone i can't help... truly sorry i am..
Okay, so first off, Cimorelli is awesome, so don't even.
ReplyDeleteSecond, don't think that you can help everyone you want to. You're not expected to, and you shouldn't feel bad about not being able to do more than you can. I mean, sure, you WILL feel bad. But know that you will need your own space, and that people will understand eventually. And the ones that don't aren't worth helping.